His World, My Hell

Sometimes we dont recognize the miricles that God sends our way.  We overlook the blossoming flowers and take them for granted.  We overlook the stars in the sky and the brightness that they give off.  We feel the wind in our face on a warm day and we forget that is Gods touch.  So many time we are so cosumed with the emotional rollarcoaster that we ride that we forget that God is taking that very ride with us.

This weekend was a weekend where God sat right there between Leo and Me.   The marriage seminar was nothing like I expected it to be.  I went to the last one and it was great, we got to cuddle, we got to kiss, we slow danced, we sang to one another, but this one was intense, stright to the point and no holds barrred.

I sit back now and I look at it all and I come to realize that God set this up from the start.  From the first seminar to this one.  Let me explain.

Out of over 1300 inmates 5 couple were choosen in the first seminar.  Over 1300 couples 7 were choosen for the second one.  The original first 5 and two more.  I believe those of us that went were hand picked by God, not that other couples couldnt benifit by being there, or that he loved the other 1295 less, but those of us that were origianlly picked all had differnt but similar issues.   I beleive that every one of us couples that were blessed with this seminar are fighting the same battle. Satin does not want us together because he knows that once we get past this trial we will be unstopable in doing Gods work.  It seems crazy to many of you who are reading this to even phanthom Leo and I doing Gods work, but I remind you of the people that God used throughout the Holy Bible.   Mary Magdaline, (a prostitue), Moses, ( a murderer), King David, ( he had too many sins to count), I could go on and on, but you get my drift.  Josesph spend many years incarcerated, (though he was innocent) See, sometimes God allows the injustices of this world to do what they will but in the end he gets the glory and the praise for bringing us through.

Yes, my husband has commited many terrible offenses, towards me, towards God, and towards the world, but he is still going to be one of Gods greateset Warriors!  Once God shakes loose the devils hold.  God placed me in his life as his helpmate because he knew that I could withstand the test of time and trials.  He knew my strength because he gave it to me.  He knew the depth of my love cuz he put it in me.  He knew the passion that I would possess in making a change becuase he created me. 

Yea, i get hurt at times, I get scared and I scream and run and shout, but at the end of the day, I give God praise for my life.  I thank him for putting this challenge before me becuase that tells me that he has faith in me to overcome (victoriously).

My book is being purchased all over the United States and If feel extremilly elevated because of this, but truth be told that is God.  He gave me the courage to write it, he gave me the time to write it, ( I had been jobless for a year), he sustained me during that year and nothing was lost,  My bills were paid, my lights were on, and we had food on the table.  GOD!  When God has a mission for you and your not sure of how to make it through, just keep on pressing forward.  If its truly of God you will find peace in everyday.  I did.

Currently I am trying to find  a way to get my book reproduced in spanish as I have a lot of people requesting it.  I a am also attempting to make it on a audio CD. 

I recognize Gods hand in all of this, and I take nothing for granted.  God has kept my marriage together for almost 2 years now, and I know that had he not plucked Leo out of his destruction when he did I would not have a husband, he would be dead.  So in all things I find peace and reason to praise God. 

No matter how bad things may seem, or how low you feel you are, PRAISE HIM.  PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM.   He has a plan, and though we dont understand or see it at that given moment, know that he makes no mistakes.  All all things work to the good who love the Lord.

God bless you all and remember, if your on a ride right now, its okay, God is right there with you!