His World, My Hell

Well, I did it. I sent him the draft for the book on Tuesday.  HE got it on Friday.  On Saturday when I went to go see him he told me that he had red the entire book in one night.

I asked him what he thought, and he said he HATED IT!  I knew he would.  I mean afterall it is about a horrible period in our time.  However, he does support me and still loves me.  That is a huge step for him.

He has been taking his medication and even says that it seems to be working, because he doesnt have the energy to be angry.  Which is good.  Because if he wernt on that medication our visit on Saturday would have been horrible. 

Its hard for anyone to read a book about themselves and have to relive those memories.  More than anything to see yourself through the window of someone elses eyes has got to be difficult.  Especially if it was bad.

That is why I love my husband so much, he is not a hypocrite.  He could have very easily not allowed the printing of this book, but he didnt.  He understands that the world will not see the ugly side of his bi polar, yet it doesnt destroy his character.   Who he is on the inside is such an inspiration to me. That is why I stay!!!!  Because I know who he is on the inside and I also know that the battle he is fighting within will be won by the good in him.  Through his efforts, and through our prayers.  He will be made whole.