His World, My Hell

Our world sometimes seems very different from the people around us.  Not only are we dealing with being a newly married couple and the kinks that come with that, but we also battle with a disorder that can destroy everything you touch if you let it.  Bi Polar has turned our live into a living hell at times, but I am thankful to God for keeping us through all the trials, and all the pain that this demon has brought us. 

Currently my husband is in prison, and I blame socieity's ignorance of this disorder.  Dont get me wrong.  I am not saying that what he did to get there was right, no!  What I am saying is that if someone had listened to the cries from his mother for him as a child, and my cries for him as a wife, and his own cries for help this may not have been the outcome.  I do believe that had he gotten the proper medication in conjuction with therapy and couseling his mind would not have reacted as it did.  Meaning he would not have become violent and uncontrolable. 

Bi Polar is a disorder that affects people in many ways.  In the case of my husband it is rage that lives inside of him.  A rage that he can not control.  Medication alone will not help this.  He needs thrapy, and counseling.  All three combined you have a chance at living a normal live.  One missing ingrediant is a recipe for disaster.  If you take the medication alone, where do you put all that rage?  How do you deal with everyday issues normally.  Too many times I hear of people say they suffer from bi polar and they take medication but no therapy.  Every mental specialist that I have spoken too in the last 2 years has told me that it can not be controlled with medication alone.

Now all Bi polar people do not have the same reactions as there are many levels of it.  I only know of ours.  The one that turns a wonderful. loving, faithful man, into a man that has no regard for self or anyone else.  A man that who normally wouldnt hurt a fly strikes out with force over the simplest thing such as misplaced keys.

My husband and I do not claim to be experts on bi polar but we are experts on our lives and what this disorder has done to our family.  It has litterally torn it apart, dividing the family and causing havoc within the lines of blood. 

People seem to very judgmental of what they do not understand.  I get that. Its a normal reaction.  We simply want to educate people through our pains and stuggles.  If we touch one life, one marriage, one family the Coopers have been sucessful in our venture.